Sunday, May 16, 2010

In the heat of the moment...




In the heat of the moment...we say things none of us mean. things like "whatever!! F*** you than!!, it's over you stupid dumb F***!!!" and we never relies what we say til it already comes out and the one you said it to is half way gone...and you try to catch them and tell them your sorry, you were wrong...but they don't want nothing to do with you any more...

and it's like why do we put our selves in those situations?? why do we let our self push the one's we love away even more...

well i did that today, i broke up with my boyfriend, i told him "you didn't call or nothing for 4 days so fine i don't care no more it's over!!" and of course he had a come back...and we got in a big fight because i said it was over...

it was an hour before we got back together...i know that's not long. But if you been with someone for a long time like me and him, that hour could seem like a day...maybe even a year. We got back together only because we both realized we both were wrong and two wrongs don't make a right...

the point is that i was lucky to be able to get him back, some of us say things and never get the one you truly cared about back...and i did...luck doesn't honor me with its grace but for once it did...and i thank that...even tho I'm still confused about the whole thing...

Saturday, May 15, 2010

My thoughts as of right now...




Why is it i always get treated this way...its not fair. He treats me like im shit...n im his girlfriend!! We been dateing too long n he still doesn't know how to treat me?? why is that?? i mean is it really hard to treat me righ?? is it sooo hard to call me when u break ur phone so i know not to call like a dumb ass!! is it soooo hard?? Is it hard to tell me u are freakin smoking again?? i mean yes ill be mad but shit i get even more mad when u lie about it....its not fair i put 100% into this relationship n he only puts 50%....it's not fair when i take two steps forword n he takes two steps back...is it??

he tells me he loves me n shows it...sometimes....but when he's not around me he never calls, never talks wen he does.....n it's like idk...i just don't know....

Hello, long time no see :]




Hey sorry i havent been on latly...been bizzy :[
Today im sad, and i shoundn't be...but i am. GRRR what i dislike the most is the fact that everything i don't want to go wrong, IS FREAKIN GOING WRONG!!! like what the hell...

Stupid boyfriend keeps breaking his phone so i can never talk to him....n than he never calls to tell me so i end up calling a phone thats BROKEN!! n he doesn't tell nothing...grrr!! idk what to do about that.

my freakin mp3 player wont show up the resent songs so i can load them on to my new computer so thats getting me mad too...and grrr idk what to do...

i just ugh!!! hate today!!!