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In the heat of the moment...

In the heat of the moment...we say things none of us mean. things like "whatever!! F*** you than!!, it's over you stupid dumb F***!!!" and we never relies what we say til it already comes out and the one you said it to is half way gone...and you try to catch them and tell them your sorry, you were wrong...but they don't want nothing to do with you any more...

and it's like why do we put our selves in those situations?? why do we let our self push the one's we love away even more...

well i did that today, i broke up with my boyfriend, i told him "you didn't call or nothing for 4 days so fine i don't care no more it's over!!" and of course he had a come back...and we got in a big fight because i said it was over...

it was an hour before we got back together...i know that's not long. But if you been with someone for a long time like me and him, that hour could seem like a day...maybe even a year. We got back together only because we both realized we both were wrong and two wrongs don't make a right...

the point is that i was lucky to be able to get him back, some of us say things and never get the one you truly cared about back...and i did...luck doesn't honor me with its grace but for once it did...and i thank that...even tho I'm still confused about the whole thing...

My thoughts as of right now...

Why is it i always get treated this way...its not fair. He treats me like im shit...n im his girlfriend!! We been dateing too long n he still doesn't know how to treat me?? why is that?? i mean is it really hard to treat me righ?? is it sooo hard to call me when u break ur phone so i know not to call like a dumb ass!! is it soooo hard?? Is it hard to tell me u are freakin smoking again?? i mean yes ill be mad but shit i get even more mad when u lie about it....its not fair i put 100% into this relationship n he only puts 50%....it's not fair when i take two steps forword n he takes two steps back...is it??

he tells me he loves me n shows it...sometimes....but when he's not around me he never calls, never talks wen he does.....n it's like idk...i just don't know....

Hello, long time no see :]

Hey sorry i havent been on latly...been bizzy :[
Today im sad, and i shoundn't be...but i am. GRRR what i dislike the most is the fact that everything i don't want to go wrong, IS FREAKIN GOING WRONG!!! like what the hell...

Stupid boyfriend keeps breaking his phone so i can never talk to him....n than he never calls to tell me so i end up calling a phone thats BROKEN!! n he doesn't tell nothing...grrr!! idk what to do about that.

my freakin mp3 player wont show up the resent songs so i can load them on to my new computer so thats getting me mad too...and grrr idk what to do...

i just ugh!!! hate today!!!

Strong words people need to use wisely

People say the words Love and Hate freely, i guess they don't understand how much those words can hurt. Hate is a very vey strong word, because if you tell someone you hate them, as much as they don't want to admite it it hurts. trust me i know. You can say the word but you don't really know how much it hurts till someone says it to you. I admite i say that word when i get mad and who doesn't?? but the thing is,it's a strong word and if your not carfull you can really hurt someone with it...to me it's not a word that should be throwen around freely...you know??...cuz to me i wouldn't want someone to tell me they hate me....my bro does but he always says sorry too :)...but still it's a bad word.

Now the word Love...is strong in other ways. If you tell your family you love them you mean it right?? but some people throw it around like nothing. they tell everyone they love them, but to be honest...do u really love everyone?? I use this word freely too, i tell my family, and my boyfriend, and my friends i love them...and i mean it, becuase i know how strong this word is, and when i use it i use it wisely. but some people don't...and i just think if they tell someone they love or hate them they should think. do you really, posativly,absolutely hate or love this person, because if they don't it can leave the person hurt or heartbroken...as my dad always told me think befor you act...and thats what i do :)

If you only knew

This is one of the poems i wrote...i hope ya'll like it.

If you only knew

How i felt about you

Than maybe i could stay,

In your warm arms forever.

When you hug me, can't you see

I don't want to let you go.

If you only knew

How i felt about you

Than maybe,just maybe

We can be more than friends.

When you talk to me, i want to

tell you everything,

but i can't.

If you only knew

How i felt about you

Than maybe you would feel it too

And than we would be one.

when you look into my eyes

I feel like you can see

right through me.

If you only knew

How i felt about you.

By: Embria Alice

wrote it 03-08-07